Okay, so I had a rather long talk with Doug yesterday...

Like I said, I get rather emotional when I feel like things are crashing down around me.  And I was intensely feeling that yesterday -- all morning I couldn't stop crying.

I told Doug everything I was feeling -- I was scared to get anything outside of my current expertise, I wanted to stay in Franklin and continue looking for a teaching job while there, I was still looking for a second job (if anything to take advantage of the benefits the second job would give me -- I have an interview with Lane Bryant on Tuesday, and if I get that position I plan on FULLY taking advantage of any clothing discount they can give me), and that I was so stressed out from the constant job hunt that I was getting really discouraged and just wanted it to STOP.

The only way for us to do that is for us to move.  And right now, it's looking more like a possibility.

The deadline we've set is for October 1.  If I don't get a teaching position by then, we're going to start making preparations to move out of this place.  We're going to find a cheap 2 bedroom apartment (ideally 3 bedroom), look in Franklin first so we don't disrupt Christopher's education (and from our research, it's likely we might be able to find something in the area in the price range), and once we are able to correct our credit rating we might look for another house again down the road.  Doug is estimating that by March everything should be all set so we won't have to stress so much after this.

He knows this has been stressing me out -- I've been too stressed about this for too long.  But, there's a plan in place.  So that is making me happy.

The whole thing about Christopher staying in Franklin is the most important part for me.  I don't want him going through what I did growing up -- by the time I graduated high school I was in three different elementary schools, managed to finish middle school in just one school, and was in three different high schools by sophomore year.  Besides, his school has been doing a good job in making sure he's challenged enough in his work -- he was in special groups this year for reading and Math because he was ahead of his classmates.

I'll be glad when school starts and I'm back to work again.  At least I'll be a little more occupied than I am right now.